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Invisibletake a deep breathe and count to ten .
what just happened ... will never happen again .
your hands start to tremble; the sink is cold .
you tell yourself you are strong; you are bold .
don't look in the mirror and stare .
this isn't right ... this isn't fair .
don't think about it too much, or you'll go insane .
tears and blood make their way down the drain .
what just happened ... to me ?
why do you feel so gross and dirty ?
feeling so worthless and wasted .
so unloved , abandoned, and tasted .
having given them everything, every part .
why did they turn, and break your heart ?
shattering every piece, leave you broken .
The EscapistIt is really insomnia
If you're keeping me awake?
Is it the infatuation
That made me start to shake?
Is it so peculiar
If you make me feel brand new?
Is it some kind of obsession
That I have with you?
I watch you when I feel lonely
Is that so wrong?
I think of you when they hurt me
So what if that's all day long?
You make me feel so happy
What if that's all I have?
Should that be taken away
Just because it sounds mad?
Because right now in real life
There's no happily ever after
When I see something I don't like
I can't just skip the chapter
Or quickly press fast forward
On a TV remote control
Real life is but a wound
And you help fill the h
Lucifer and VisitorThe Devil mourned his homeland lost
Upon a stone in exile deep
Beneath the great Earth’s hardened crust
Where fires rage inside the sea
Much too far for father sky
To see the rock where The Devil lie
As he lamented, sullen, weary
Expression that of sorrow true
A Thing appeared, and very clearly
Cracked the gates of Lucifer’s tomb
The grin that danced upon his face
Found hell to be the quaintest place
The thing approached and asked him kindly,
“Why do you mourn your banishment?
All the land above I do see
But I’ve never seen an armament
So well hidden from my mighty eyes
Which see all things as they liv
I don't know you enough
To even know your last name
But I do know that you've had it rough
As I have felt the same
But you've suffered more in your distress
Making my past sorrows
Seem nothing more than a jest
Knowing atonement heralds tomorrow
Even so, I know the pain
And the committal to aid
In my heart has lain
Of course, if you desire it made
My heart, I swear, broke
When I heard of your troubled emotions
And the stress driving you to provoke
And this stayed in my notion
Maybe I could give comfort
Make the past easier to overlook
Together, rid of our contorts
And be each other's retreating nooks.
AnimalsWe’re animals, we’re beasts who prey
Upon the weak who fear our stay
Its natural to feast and slay
Their hearts bleed in our jowls
We all wear masks and masquerade
As decent creatures, folks who pray
But deep inside, our demons play
Beneath cowardice cowls
The others claim to know the way
Those neutered, tamed, trained to obey
Condemning us for what we say
Look down at us with scowls
They lock our voices in a cage
Restrictions bind, we’re blind with rage
Liberate yourselves, you slaves
Let free your hungry howls
To the vermin calling me scoundrel
I will not heel, I will not bow
You’ll hear the hatred in my growl
My Lonely LoveWipe off your tears
and hold your head high
get rid of your fears
and heave your biggest sigh
Oh, my lonely love
Alone in a crowded room
Feeling so scared
The shadow of isolation looms
and it feels like they don't care
My lonely love
Remembering the times
when it was just us
Sorrow, with its sweetest rhymes
think of it as you must
My lonely love
Crying alone at night
wondering what you did
hearing them fight
when you were only a kid
my lonely love
Told that you were ugly
that you were not good enough
they will just never see
That they weren't all that tough
my lonely love
When it feels as though your soul is gone
And your heart is broken
Notes and LettersI wrote a note the other day,
And with it shared my feelings.
I've tried to have it other ways,
But they seem to be congealing.
I loved the stars when I was young;
The first word of mine was "light".
Of happy thoughts, I once had none,
But now the world's more bright.
I feel too much frustration,
I need to be more calm.
I drown in hesitation,
Too scared to sing my song.
I never was the kind of child
I wish I could have been.
At times I've been more meek and mild,
But later I learned to sin.
I wonder, sometimes, whose life I'm living,
Whose soul endows this frame.
I blunder, sometimes, when what they give me
Doesn't match my name.
Whence To WhereYou surprise me and confuse me,
And make me love you more.
The brightness may undo me,
The darkness I adore.
There's so much grey,
And so much pain
That brings rejuvenation.
I fall and sink,
But then I blink
Whence to where is what I asked,
But much is coming clear.
My sadness fading here at last,
And with it all my fears.
You've brought me out,
How can I count
The times you've soothed my soul?
From where I was,
You may become
The star that leads me home.
Light and dark will mold and mix
Till grey is what I see.
A calming sight that seems to fix
What once was wrong with me.
The LiarWhen I found out the truth
The filthy thing under the bed
I screamed and howled
And learned to hate;
For the truth was biting
Bitter and cold
Like a burning hailstorm
That I wished had never unfold
I kept a secret
Told a lie
I spoke words of hatred
Felt something wilt and die
The world was faux
An unattainable fantasy
Hopes were fed to monsters
In my blood that cried blasphemy
I don't think you knew
Because you'd hate me if you did
To know our common blood was false
Of me, you'd surely rid
So I cut you off first
Then you'd never have the chance
To look under the bed
And pierce me through with a lance
I destroyed you first
So I'd not be
Last Day, Last LightDarkness surrounds
Black of darkest night
Not a sound
Last day, last light
A flame flickering to life
Hovering at the cigerette’s end
Only in my head is there strife
Left with my thoughts to fend
Slow drag to kill the pain
What’s there left to do?
The sky dark with storm’s rain
Our society so skewed
We can only realize this
The true power of hatred’s bite
Ignorance is truly bliss
Last day, last light
I hear them draw close
The demons in heart and head
Every weakness, they know
Across a meek world they spread
From the wound red emerges
My time is short, I have no fight
Pulses of pain surges
Last day, last light
In tribute to a friendFORGET
To forget a promise made
To forget a heart in pain
To forget a friendship's fade
To forget attempts in vain
To forget the start
To forget the bloody end
To forget what breaks a heart
To forget about about a friend
To forget what you had
To forget what you lost
To forget why she's mad
To forget cruelty's cost
To forget a monster's sins
To forget an artist's layers
To forget the bloody skins
To forget silenced prayers
To forget a line of lies
To forget what most would hide
To forget a horrid cry
To forget who's heart will bide
Forget to have known
Forget to have been shown
You are not alone
Dreaming on a CanvasIn the Moonlight
Look into a fathomless night and see the constellation flicker
Removed from our existence is a speck long and gone
A smoky stream of purple fog moving like a breeze, yet thicker
Seen by those who roam along an endless black beyond
An everlasting journey, past a thought amidst a wall
Here I may attempt to fly, here I sleep and here I cry
I turned around within myself, peeled away my lids and saw
My skeleton standing by itself, ageless on a shelf and dry
Mystery was my reason and my final destination why
Questions are my purpose, yet the answers only sound obscene.
For I walk eternally and soon begin the day I die
13. MisfortuneYou took the vow,
You said you would.
By all accounts,
Your word was good.
You loved me,
That much was clear.
And I loved you.
You know that, dear.
So please explain,
Why did you leave?
So much pain,
With no reprieve.
Did our love end?
Not on my side.
Was it pretend?
Or has it died?
Alli know, I'm
A single mom
With two young kids.
I miss you, Tom.
Raising yourself.Daddy's busy
Dad just want another beer
Maybe next week
He'll have time.
Daddy loves you
But daddy doesn't care
Mom just wants to sleep
Maybe next week
Mommy loves you
But mommy doesn't care
So she closes her doors
And she tucks herself in
She gives her teddy a kiss
On the forehead
like the parents
In Saturday morning cartoons
And she says her prayers
To the Father Grandmother told her of
The other Father
that never had time for her.
And she closes her eyes
and sings herself to sleep.
I won't leave youAfter all you've seen me do
All you've heard me say
I can't believe
you'd say I'll forget
Do you think I'll ever forget
The way your face lights up just before you laugh
Or the way you growl at me
when I try to talk to you before noon.
Do you think I'll ever forget
The time you called me your sister
Or the time we drove out to the beach
And forgot that the world moves without us.
Do you think it meant that little
When I told you I'd never leave
Or when you came over in the middle of the night
and we walked together till morning.
Do you think I don't know
That after all we've said and done
There is no going back.
You're stuck with me.
Promises, promises.The cold earth makes a cracking noise as I crush it under my heels. The world's weight on my shoulders presses down with every step I take.
I've never known how the outside can seem beautiful. I suppose it's a matter of perspective.
I am a fighter.
I fight for the will to live. Hanging on to a cyberthread that grows between me and you, nurtured only by the soft glow of a computer screen in darkness.
I never found God. I don't turn to prayer in my time of need, hoping that a divine power will save me from myself. Instead, I find solace in the low res picture of you that fills my screen. Your fingers quietly flying over the keyboard.
BedI want to wake up to the smell of you
In my bed in the mornings
I want to know how it feels to hold you.
I want to see the sun caress your freckles
A caress saved for the sun and me.
I want you to wake to the smell of coffee
in my bed in the mornings
I want you to know I'll always hold you while we sleep.
I want to see you rub the sleep from your eyes
and smile the smile you keep just for me
I want to fall asleep feeling you move against me
In your bed every night.
I want to know how it feels to call you mine
I want to see how you brush your teeth groggily
While you hiss at me to go to bed.
I want you to fall asleep feeling my hear
Paper GirlPaper thin paper skin, caressed by the paper gown.
Her eyes, mesmerized, watched as the numbers went down.
Life came with a knife and wiped out her light.
Her mother and brother prayed she'd be alright.
Her eyes held a bright light that's been taken by force
At least, at last, she's a beautiful corpse.
BailoutThis work of fan fiction contains characters, ideas, situations, and places found in the Hasbro Studios series "My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic". No infringement of copyright is implied by this work of satire and parody, and this work is meant as a celebration of the people involved in the creation, development, and production of the series.
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