Hello guys

I know that not a lot of you read the journals. I'll admit, I don't do that very much any more. But I wanted to talk to you, and I hope someone takes the time to read this.

I haven't posted much this year.
I've written a whole bunch, but I haven't been posting. I'd apologize, but I reckon it's not something of great importance to you, so I just want to tell you about my year.

This year... well, it wasn't easy for me.
The crazy schedule finally caught up with me and this september, I just lost control.
I was so exhausted, I literally couldn't stand up straight. I was dizzy and nauseous and worst of all, I felt horrible on the inside.

See, I decided to be less than brilliant and take an overfull semester schedule this term. In addition to school I had dance, I had scouts and I had work. Not to mention the whole family thing. Well it was too much.

I went to the doctor, and got diagnosed with depression. I'm not ashamed of it, but it was holding me back. Still is in some way.
I'm working on it. I'm working on me. I don't feel like I can get decent stuff out there unless I get myself straightened out. That's why I've been pretty absent.

I do think my writing improved this year. I think, that when I get my balance back, I can give you stuff that you'll honestly enjoy reading. I intend to go into the new year with the promise of something better.

I've made some pretty amazing friends this year. Both they and my old friends have really helped me get through. I've been trying to make time for them. I know how important it is to make time for your friends ow, you don't know how long they'll stay. Not necessarily that they'll leave you or die. You might grow apart. Either of you might move away for school. You might change. Shit happens. But knowing you had those friends, and that if you asked, they'd be there for you, even if you haven't spoken in days, weeks or months. That's priceless.

So, to those of you who read my stuff, thanks.
Merry Christmas, and I hope your year has been good and that the new one will be even better.

-Anna